Perhaps it is expectations
Too high
They do not wish to disappoint me; or
They are bullies at heart; or
Maybe they believe that I am overly emotional
They don’t wish to cause me anxiety; then again
They could be protecting their reputations, or they
Have a long-held habit; or
They are afraid of how I might retaliate
They have lied so much they no longer recognize the truth
or can identify it’s characteristics ~
so they don’t know they are lying.
Hmmm…I wonder
My attention (thank you, therapy)
on a close family member
albeit a well-known bull-by-the-horn character
with huge responsibilities
has lied to me
my. entire. life.
And in another journey
a (now former) romantic interest lied to me
throughout our entire relationship.
There is a warning light
It comes on in my gut
Sometimes I wish I did not have it
For whatever reason, I know without a doubt, when someone is lying to me
Can I prove it?
Do I even want to?
I don’t.
It does cause me anguish
and a stuttering breath
to realize the broken trust
I have been known
to try excusing them
by reframing the break
as an event
whereby they are trying to protect me
This seldom holds up for long
After time
and more lies
I walk
Sadly
with purpose
I begin
again
With renewed hope
For tomorrow.
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