Why

Perhaps it is expectations

Too high

They do not wish to disappoint me; or

They are bullies at heart; or

Maybe they believe that I am overly emotional

They don’t wish to cause me anxiety; then again

They could be protecting their reputations, or they

Have a long-held habit; or

They are afraid of how I might retaliate

They have lied so much they no longer recognize the truth

or can identify it’s characteristics ~

so they don’t know they are lying.

Hmmm…I wonder

My attention (thank you, therapy)

on a close family member

albeit a well-known bull-by-the-horn character

with huge responsibilities

has lied to me

my. entire. life.

And in another journey

a (now former) romantic interest lied to me

throughout our entire relationship.

There is a warning light

It comes on in my gut

Sometimes I wish I did not have it

For whatever reason, I know without a doubt, when someone is lying to me

Can I prove it?

Do I even want to?

I don’t.

It does cause me anguish

and a stuttering breath

to realize the broken trust

I have been known

to try excusing them

by reframing the break

as an event

whereby they are trying to protect me

This seldom holds up for long

After time

and more lies

I walk

Sadly

with purpose

I begin

again

With renewed hope

For tomorrow.

Photograph & Poetry by FawnRising2017