A Time of Reflection

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I waken to a world of gray cold drizzle.

It is my favorite weather.

I especially love it if I can be at my lake cottage (the Fort).

It is reminiscent of a treehouse.

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Located in north-central Florida, it is a very old cobbled-together patch of two cottages and three outbuildings.

It is a deeply fragile ecosystem.

So fragile that, if I were God, humans would never have begun to inhabit Florida.

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Wild animals romp across the beach and two rescue dogs along with three rescue cats fill my world.

I am an educator/writer.

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Three years have flown by with eight hospitalizations.

Four heart issues, one triple-fractured pelvis, one cardio monitor implant, a broken wrist, a broken foot, and two new hips.

These medical issues join Chronic Inflammatory Response Syndrome (CIRS), osteoporosis in my hips and lumbar, scoliosis, fibromyalgia, severe arthritis, three years of blacking out with falls, seizures, broken bones, anxiety, depression, Complex-PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder which contains the added element of repetition), nerve damage to my hearing, and eyesight failing.

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For the first time in my life, I am not working ~ I am on a Medical Leave of Absence while my pelvis heals and my hips are replaced. Questions remain.

It is a time of reflection and wonderment.

Thanks to the Great Spirit and 43 doctors, diagnoses of severe lead poisoning and radiation in utero are found along with a genetic mutation (MTHFR gene) causing allergic reactions to biotoxins and mycotoxins found in mold and alcohol. These are determined to be part of my world.

And while we cannot reverse the damage to the bones or the brain, we can pull out the unabsorbed lead, cease the intake of alcohol, and lessen the amount of mold exposure.

And we do.

And we will continue for life.

It is a time to write, to sketch, to design, to compose music, to choreograph and to take a truth-telling look at my life’s journey.

It is time to fall in love with life, people, art, clouds, ladybugs, birds, and horses.

It is a richly textured non-traditional journey.

~Published Moodscope.com, Great Britain, 2015